the wake-up call

Wednesday: Mm, good day. Encounter with people I missed seeing made me smile crazy smiles, hahaha.

So, a lot has been going through my mind lately.
I see myself trying to go with the flow, lying back to watch all that life has to offer. At the same time, I pretend to be oblivious of all the negativity. "Everything is going to be fine." But when I’m abandoned in that place called reality, I know I’m lying to myself. It’s like a wake-up call tugging at me. “Wake up from your dreamworld, girl; life ain’t easy,” something tells me. Don’t get me wrong, I’m trying to get myself out of whatever trap I got myself into. But it’s only then when I realize I’m not strong enough to take whatever life is throwing at me. At least not yet. Inside, I’m a big baby who needs caring. I hate to admit it, but yeah it’s true and I know I can’t deny an obvious truth. I just can’t help but wonder numerous things. I always have to remind myself to have a limit in my curiosity for it can lead to frightening outcomes.

I’m now discovering the nature of people.
I’m now more careful in handling with the issue of trust.

All I want is for the carefree character to come back in my life.

This is yet another jumble of random words. But at least it speaks my confused heart. Ah, I’m in need of major vacation from everything. Just 7 more days to go, and I’m good.