contemplations of the now

Basically, I've been pigging out late night for the past week. In addition to that, I'm seriously in the sleep-deprived mode. What a condition to be in with a week of summer left..

But, really, it's all good, cus He is with me.


So, before HORIZON '08 happened, I have to admit, God was practically the last thing on my list of priorities. Yeah, I was a church-goer, a CENT member, and an attendant of various Christian revivals and such. But something definitely wasn't right in my life. And that was Him, someone I turned my back on until my life turn into ugly shambles. It took me a retreat to realize such a mistake. He was there, He was there. I felt it; a sentiment far greater than anything in the world. Nothing can't even begin to describe the night it all happened. In midst of awe, I could do nothing, but kneel and break down in the presence of my longed Lord. He was there, He was there.

Of course, it wasn't my first time. But that night was different. It wasn't emotions, or fear.. just Him and my repetitive "sorry"s. Sorry that I was so ignorant, sorry that I was so judgmental, sorry that I wasn't genuine at times, sorry that I was harsh.. And the amazing thing is, even when I was living such a life of sin, He still forgave me and opened up His arms to embrace His returned child. I fell in love with Him all over again. He's just so deserving. And worthy. I'd lift up all the love to him in the world and it'd still not match up to how much He loves His children. He works in His own amazing, yet indescribable ways. He's been here through my good times and the bad. ALL FOR JESUS, ALL THE WAY! a4j <3

a la peaceful melodies

In response to the previous post and jabbers, a little something to show his wit and cuteness, not to mention his musical capabilities that never seem to fail me.




Quoting:
"If you don't I'm going to absorb the Colbie Caillat character in myself..I'll just it tuck it between my legs, if you know what i mean."

And he pulled it off with perfection. I guess the song didn;t need a duet partner after all<3

we sulk, we whine, we sing

If only summer curfews don't exist..
If only we didn't play Cranium until 2 in the morning..
Then I would be outside doing something far more interesting than sitting my ass in front of the comp screen, repeating all the pointless phrases of If Only's.

Jeezus! As if I didn't have many choices tonight to entertain myself.

Such as:
In a pool, late night swimming.
Screaming my head off, in place called Highway 9.
Or, Batmannning.

But tonight, I ignored whatever plans were supposed to happen.
(Due to my parents' rising decibels)
To sit my ass here, to sleep at a bedtime I don't have, to attend church tomorrow in early hours.

So I guess, as usual, the tune of Jason Mraz is only cheery (or should I say, Pleasant) voice in my ears tonight.

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

the epilogue

Aloe cream is slapped on, straightening iron is warmed up.

From candlelights to Dora tattoo sprawled across my wrist, Relay, and LA after was quite adventurous, and definitely meaningful. I bonded and shared deep conversations with the missed among the spelled out candles. Hummed to lovely beats of favorite tunes by fading lights. I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend.. Footballed on vast fields of green with bare feet. Napped in a mansion perched in hills of Gilroy past midnight. Cuddled in layers of blankets next to loved ones and the newly met. Entertained with photography, pieces of memories to be cherished and tucked away.

Then the City was more memory-making in sites of Santa Monica, Beverly Hills, and such.


After three days of irregular sleep and junk food, I sit as an epitome of chapped lips, bug bites, ridiculous tan, and blurred remains of Spongebob tattoos..



Without my realization, I'm already halfway through summer of 2008. Memories made, more to make. Back to work tomorrow morning, then city seeing @ SF! I utter once again, Oh Summerlavvh<3

3 am contemplation

HIHI (12:28:12 AM): someone told me
HIHI (12:28:33 AM): "you are whiter than the last time i saw you."
HIHI (12:28:48 AM): yuuuuup, i've been avoiding the sun nowadays
HIHI (12:28:53 AM): in the mall 24/7
HIHI (12:28:56 AM): mmm, AC!

So you may ask, "Whassssup!"
Heat exhaustion is up, that's what. Yeah, you heard me.
What a heated wad of sticky 7 days. A productive one at that.

Today, after a long day of juice making and classing, I rearranged furnitures and tasked another delicious project - asian noodles and a batch of le sauce rouges avec fruits de mer. After, I greeted church adults - a potluck. By the time of good nights rolled around, my RFL fundraiser was halfway done, thanks to generous adults. Oh yess, I'm rockin' and ready to go for RFL! Well, to be exact, $50 and 24 more hours to go, lol.

In reminisce of the past few days, everything I see myself doing, people I react with, produced emotions and satisfactions represent a true reflection of happiness.

The conclusion: summer keeps me complcent.

In the coming weekend, I'll be out, basically 24/7.
11. Swimming, food, photographs, last-minute RFL fundraising, dinner, Wanted.
12/13. Relay for Life @ Campbell; LA upon arrival. "Buh-bye Cupertino. Citybaby, here I come!"


-
11:34 PM update;
Wanted didn't happen, but Vfair, Thai food, and NVC did.
What a way to wrap a supa long, exhausting day! :D
reminder: reflective work asap, life & religious.

I'm sleeping soon, first time ever to sleep before 12 this summer.

pasta galore

and awkwardly matching set of chopsticks.

Sweaty shirts, sticky sofa, series of showers to last me for days...
The unexplainable burst of heat that tires me from mere vacant seatings of two minutes.

With temperature of three digits, I was flabbergasted by my sudden inquisitiveness to Italian cuisine. Along with the ridiculous urge for French and usage of its vocabulary.

It was quite a labor, with five steamy pots and pans, not contributing in lessening the heat whatsoever. However, after witnessing smiles and empty plates from what was to me, daring venture at les pates, the labor was magically inexistent.

After attempted Italian extraordinaire, I replayed missed episodes of soap opera, refilled glasses with h2O, and replaced closet attires, developing yet another routine.


Now I sit, still full, awaiting for the midnight snack prepared by the very hands of my mother.

How ironic. All I ever wished for was to keep that 9 PM sleep mark, and now that it's summer, I'm constantly typing away in hours way past midnight, wide-awake and nocturnal.

Tomorrow will be work, AC and smoothies will keep me satisfied for some good hours.

BAM!

"Your drive for freedom, independence, and absolute authority over your own life is quite strong. You need to follow your own rhythm. You are likely to actually act on some of the more unusual or "crazy" impulses you feel from time to time. This is a time when you crave excitement."

Oh Boy, the craziness is acting up again. (:

1,2,3..MAKE A WISH!

xtanginaxr0nna: nigga, you got stop spending money on food


The time is slowly ticking away. It's now 3:36AM.
I'm dehydrated, definitely not lethargic, and in a quixotic state of mind.



ETE! So far..
Unlimited edibles and impossibility of a sleep-deprived Park.
Continuous "BRAKE!"s, "STOP!"s, frustrated parent, ecstatic laughs of a thrilled driver.
Lack of exercise, academic stress, and $$$.
Necessity of SAT vocabulary, leisure reading, creativity realms, and better eating habits.
More spoonfuls of frozen delicacy, aka Yogurtland/Tartini. Extra toppings, puhlease! (:

Current: In need of major makeover makeover makeover.
As I'm speaking, I'm referring to my strands.
Extensions VS. Bangs VS. Dye.

Or we can always stick to Plan B: All of the Above.
I'm the master of planning; it's the 'taking into action' part that always gets me.


And the place of my chamber -
A trip to IKEA, new comforters, a couch. Maybe splash of new colors?

lalala...

As next week begins (whoa, july already?!), my official summer agenda will come into shape: work, math, art, chill, SATs, church. Yeapp. Excitement?

And oh yeah, the weekend vacations!
As Estelle would scream, "Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA!"
I want Socal. Baby, bring the City to me!



As of last words, to whoever is responsible for the saying "Iron Man is better than Transformers!" - Hells no to the no! No thank you to crappy endings. Gimme Wall-E and Angelina Jolie!

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And here is to..
the lovely collection of selected edibles of the week.

Yes, I've developed a strange habit of photographing various food items.

:D

lovely facts keep me alive

knowing the fact that I don't have to wake in early hours,
knowing the fact that I can indulge frozen yogurt all day long,
knowing the fact that I can sit to watch the world go by without a single worry in mind, the few things that make summer GREAT.. (:

As pleasant as summer may be, it's obvious I haven't gotten the gist of it yet. Getting there, not quite there though. I can't wake up from the feeling that after this long weekend, I'll get up and shower to go to school. I need to get out to participate in some serious summer outing. Beach much?!

bittersweet goodbyes

Bittersweet, that unusual feeling in the heart after so many goodbyes happen.

That's basically me right now - 11:21 PM of first Saturday of summer '08. After the last few days that consisted goodbyes, hugs, more goodbyes, and gulped down tears.

I must say, I despise this feeling. The sad sensation where all kinds of emotions come rushing at you. I don't know whether to laugh it out or cry cry. I don't know whether or not I will see you again in this lifetime. Maybe we'll run into each other at a random place at a random time. But, very unlikely. I don't know. Saying goodbyes, it's always been so hard. Honestly, I think that's one thing no one is good at. Well, for me, especially this year - tough beyond imaginable measures. So many times spend with certain people and the memories molded as each minute ticked away - the inside jokes, life stories, everything. Coming home, overwhelmed by so many goodbyes I repeated, my vision blurred as tears came gushing out. I want to kneel down and cry my eyes out.

Saying goodbye, it's the hardest thing in life that I'll never be able to handle well.

mission accomplished

12:18AM -6/12

After series of sleep-deprived nights from final exam preparations, I wish to do nothing but wait for the conclusion of my sophomore year. Without any significant tasks to achieve from being adjusted to the cycle of burying my head into historical information and algebraic graphs, I gladly amuse my bored self with online movies and last minute researching of summer activities.

I wait, wait, and wait some more. But it's obvious the fact hasn't sunk in yet. It feels too strange that after tomorrow, I will be called a Junior. It still feels like million hours away from now.

With the surge of excitement, at the same time a sense of hesitation, I anticipate the upcoming day of June 12 that will wrap up my second year of high school career. I imagine tomorrow as a day of Goodbyes, to many of whom I will never see again. But tomorrow will also be a day of a new doorway. The day to store up the cherished memories in the corners of our hearts, promise the day when we'll meet once again, and move on. I'm sucker when it comes to saying goodbyes; I tend to let emotions take over me, hopefully nothing would like would happen tomorrow. I'd hate to show tears.

One negative side of start of summer is having to say goodbyes.
And it's one of my least favorite things to do.


Besides that, tomorrow is going to be the most amazing Thursday of this year - last day school, possible shopping trips, TINO GRAD, dancedance! My Casio shutter will be clicking 24/7.

countdown

Summer ‘08, D-4.

I desire to expand my literacy abilities, dive myself into some city shopping, participate extraordinary activities, entertain myself with piercings and other new looks, earn $$$, master the art of driving, stay hydrated and fit, gear myself for fashion by educating in design and construction, expand creativity boundaries, and most anticipated, run around in pretty summery outfits as I enjoy the Summer Warmth.

And of course, the dreaded SAT classes – the very moment when the horrors of Junior year becomes an undeniable reality.

Besides that, I envision delicious 3 months of leisure, rest, and bonding. So much to accomplish this summer, and I see that I’m running out of time already.

Oh Summer ’08 <3 Come and grasp my soul already! Hm, Despite all the negativity though, I have to admit I’m hyped for Junior year. Diana Park - Junior, Fashion Club Secretary, Yearbook Staff, future Parsons attendee. For the last part, one ultimate goal since the age of nine - I’ve been working on it. And it'll be my last year with '09. Make the best outta it. I'm soooo ready to get some fun out of the stereotypical Highschool helldom year!



Back to reality - I have three final exams and two presentations to perform next week. Rather than diving into some serious studying session Finals, I prefer to revive with shopping trips and good ol’ cup of Yogurtland. But unfortunately, Dreamlands aren't meant to be lived in forever.

lesson learned

One sunny Saturday afternoon,
One pair of sore legs,
= Two inspirational fashion show clips.


Exhausted from dancing the night away, I woke up way past Brunchtime this morning. I treated myself with an unreasonably large meal - and received a message that notified no practice to attend today. Oh joy!

Now, accompanied by a beloved cup of water, I sit to jot down the reflective words of the past, present, and future days to come.

Speaking of YBK dance, it was amazing from beginning to end. One of the best dances I’ve been to – the laughter, tears, pictures, and memories. And of course, the highlight of the night was getting sexual with my lovely ladies (; Now that it’s over, I’m only saddened in knowing that when I come back as a Junior next year, the Senior Lawn will be ‘08 less. I will miss all of you dearly..




In reminisce of the past months I call the second year of high school – phew, what a rocky, but exciting rollercoaster ride! Compared to easygoing and rather dull flow of my previous year, being a sophomore was a quite an adventurous experience. Vigorous sleepless nights I sacrificed to complete academic tasks, new vocabulary, and more inside jokes. But mostly, amazing people I connected with and precious memories I shared with them - definitely priceless.


And above all, the lessons learned.

I learned to better handle my emotions and I learned that I am the happiest when I am among people. Because in the presence of them, I'm continually motivated and inspired – whether it's style, viewpoint of the world and life, or genuine act of kindness and care from the heart.
And I learned that failures exist in life and that I may fall hard, extra hard, but that I have to wipe off that dirt and stand back up – cus it’s only when I get back up and move on that I can truly be stronger then I was before.

Sure, there were the hard moments of change and frustration. But looking back, every second of agony and tears shaped and built me, bringing me to the place I stand as of now.


And definitely, sophomore year constitutes the best taste of Highschool I’ve gotten so far.
(:

let's make love under cherry trees

June? JUNE ALREADY?!
The last month of school has arrived at last. In a matter of days, I can finally BREATHE into academic stress-free air.

Wellwellwell, MAY = one hectic jumble. Or perhaps better worded as one of the busiest 31-day period of my life.

When I was not at school or home attempting to give a boost in academic status and such, I was entertained in weekend outings. Either accompanied by nature - in the beach bonfire and cherry picking quarters. Or chatting up with new faces at Bell grad gathering, birthdays, other parties, and CENT performances.

In addition to the fact that "Good Life" is playing as my life soundtrack,
everything seems lovely today. The B+ on my research paper, Sr. prom pics, the newly purchased seahorse chains, the anticipated YBK dance, and 7-day countdown for summer vacation - the few things that keep my smiles from disappearing.

Now, I seriously wish I can the fast-forward the clocks so I can dream of running out CHS gates to greet summer instead of sulking about math finals that will occur in sixth period tomorrow.


P.S. Jr p-p-prom = FAIRMONT $50. Alrighty, 11-month countdown shall begin...NOW. (:

intensity to the max!

So I made a decision couple of days ago:
Skip the show and head up to SF.

So what should've been a Friday night that consisted of
1:00 - 5:00 PM Chillin' after early bell.
5: 00 - 11:00 PM Grad at SF

became 1:00 - 11:00 PM Chilllllin'


Basically, my plans went to ruins when I found myself at a nearby pool with Tina at 5:00 PM. Uh oh. The rest of the evening went by with intense boxing matches, wet feet, chilling and microwavable delicacies. I never saw guys boxing in front of my eyes. Whoa punches and nosebleeds. I have to say, intense stuff! Hahaha.

But overall, the night was a great turnout.
Although I'm still a bit disappointed for not making it to grad, poo.

Hmm. I'm beginning to love Friday nights more than weekends nowadays. Oh and good job, class of 2010 btw. We rocked at the rally today. First place <3 I shall go and entertain myself with some french and mathematics. Bon nuit!


COMING UP:
Three-day weekend, choir auditions (acapellaa?!), Tribes. Ohhh baby.

True, entries are rather dull. But life is too fun to not record its events. But there's one missing essence: ..shopping much? The period of un-spending has got to come to a halt. One big, fat halt.

einy miny miney mo

Einy miny miney mo - Tribes, JDSN graduation, or fashion show.
All occuring at 7:00 PM, 23rd of May.

I hate schedule conflicts, and making these decisions are the worst.
Unwanted dilemmas, and having to give up one thing to achieve the other. I can't emphasize enough how sick and tired I am of this life cycle. Ohh, gimmme wisdom!

buttermilk pancakes

Jusssss got home!
And oh my, guess what? I'm only halfway through my weekend.

Well, all I wanna say is late-night breakfasts are ze BEST.
I've never had so many pancakes at 12am. What a pleasant experience.

Oh, and so are Narnia movies and strolling around Santana Row!


Unfortunately.. can only mean still itchy eyes and uhh, migraine much?
WHY DO ALLERGIES HAVE TO EXIST!dsfjdsjfjdfdsitertkgkfkg.

Goodbye, I have another long weekend day ahead of me.

take a bow

Today = one day worthy of a full weekend.

Kiwanis special games from 7 till afternooon.
Free pizza then yogurtland after! Yumm.
Napping and fun at Tina's.
Argh, fatty headache.
More naps and attempted jumping in the pool at school.
Food feasting then shower at home.
SCHS BATTLE OF CLASSES! Made me wanna go to Tribes real badly.
Unexpected call, then in KEPC untill this very hour.


Jeezusss! I'm EXHAUSTED. My blood-shot eyes explains all.

I'm glad for this long, fun day though, considering the vigorous week I had with countless academic responsibilities to accomplish, in addition to the ridiculously hot weather. I'm suffering from a severe case of allergies and dehydration; I was absolutely drained and energy-less. Well, not today! Met hella people and yay for new inside jokes. Today was amazingly fun (: Well I must sleep to put a stop to these allergy reactions. And this FATTY HEADACCHE. Gotta get my pills to start workin'. Good night people.

mayflowers

windows are rolled down the whole way,
my thoughts float away into the hot air as my mind wanders off.

100 degrees, sweaty palms, rolled up shorts.
oh joy, summer is finally peeking its way into my life.

emoism?

7 am, then again at 10 am: I woke up to unfamiliar noise of silence.

Few moments after, a pathetic mixture of the Sad, Lonely, Poor, Sick, Injured and above all, Disappointed (at myself and you) greeted me in front of my bathroom mirror.


Now I'm sitting my sorry ass at home, blocking out whatever the world may want to scream into my earlobes.

Phone off, door locked.
Unattended plans, full stomach, injured shoulder, naked face.

Only full volume of blasting music here to entertain me.



In normal situations, I have nothing against unexpectant moments. But not when it comes rushing at you for two whole hours. Too much information was processed through me last night, I need a whole day to rest and revive.


So, as of now, goodbye world.

<3, me

Sometimes, I wish this was all a dream.
30 seconds of imaginary lalaland that loses its original image and identity overtime. Unfortunately, this goodamn life doesn't function in the way I want it to. Instead of taking the position of the conductor, I let it to just roll along by itself, oblivious of series of negativity and regret that would come back to hunt me into path of terror. Into something that would mold into an unutterably awful mess.

Sometimes, I wish to acquire the capability to let go - every last piece of crap and unwanted memories. Or, even the ability to take everything inside, and not hurt. Is such desire categorized as greed? Mere wishes that will forever be a burden to whatever I do to happify myself?

Sometimes, I ponder if all this anxiety and frustration is worth it. Without any early warnings, it has become a habit, or perhaps a routine. Maybe I should be more understanding. Maybe you are just clueless as to how opened I am when it comes to the truth and the possible action of sensitivity from deliverance is grabbing at you with fear. Maybe I should be settled. I know it’s been going on for way too long, but I'm now too big-headed to be cuddled up in someone's arms for protection. And really, all I'm asking here is for you to lend a hand in my desperate, unending struggle to savor every minute of life and what it has to offer.


Thus, in conclusion:
My multiple attempts to smile is wearing out.
I'm thirsty for some genuineness here.

Oh, how I wish I can say, just keep me satisfied with pieces of love, a motivation, and maybe a quick shake in the shoulder. Then I will be good to go. Oh fosho dude!

But no, life is complication – a jumble of fucked up nonsense. An ugly mass of confusion, frustration, and the final cry of “I GIVE UP!!!!” Puhhhlease, don't even allow me to utter those last words of a quitter.


Or... just leave me alone and let me be the little sulky bitch I can be. Thank you very much.

boom boom

Just got back from HP Pavillion! I'm still in awe of its amazingness.
My vision is blurry and my ears are booming.


Rhianna was gorgeous, rocking her neon pinks.
Oh, LUPELUPE. D:

And of course, Kanye West rocked the stage!
Hellllaa took over, he's truly the best.
"You are our brightest star." Hah, storyline was cute.


Approximately 24 more hours until end of break.
Without a doubt, KANYE = the highlight of vacation.
Oh, he will be playing nonstop in my eardrums for the longest time.

Good night peeps. Sleeping will be lovely tonight.

-

lol, Rhiannnaa.

beautify my world

My regular routine of schooling is slowly distorting itself in this week of hassle and fun. Three days into this delicious rest, I’m currently sporting a new do of blond and sugary taste of pastries remain in my mouth. Despite the fact that it's been more than five hours since my encounter with butter, milk and cookie dough, I still remain hunger-less. Woah, how many calories did I consume in the baking progress I do not even want to go into. Well the visit at the park was quite amusing. I swear, there's something about the grass that is uplifting. Well minus the possible sunburn I am experiencing at the moment; aloe cream comes in handy at these times. yupyup!

Yesterday: I placed on order for the brown summer sandals and scarf in the shade of sunshine I’ve laid my eyes on for weeks. Ahhh, too beautiful to be true, to be delivered in my hands within few days. And no more Nike obessions - ma mere brought a pleasant suprise of lovely Adidas the other day. And ohmymy, Horton was the cutest thing ever! There goes another favorite animation.

Well, in a way, break's a total different turnout than the expected. I must say, though, I like the change.

chocolate delights

edited; 04/11/08

Without my realization,
April of 2008 is already inching halfway into my life..

Anyways, if there's one thing I haven't been diligent with recently, it's Blogging. Due to my many absences at home this week, it's been swayed away from my mind. In addition to that, I would smack my face into exponential graphs or WWII material the very minute my feet stepped into the doors of my chamber. That's righttt, two more months of sophomore year and I'm working my ass off to maintain the decent grades while attempting to stay on top of other priorities. After this, I'll be happily sitting on plane on the way to my homeland. Oh joy! And currently I'm fully scheduled until August. Oh, what a hell of a summer I'm headed to.

Updates,
The current joy of my life consists of laughing my head off among the gleams of sunshine. Which will continue through October at this rate. Good sense of humor and weather are the true necessities. They put smiles on my lips and leaves giddy all day long. ah, gimme more of that!

..contemplation: Splurging on non-edible item has been extremely temptatious lately. I doubt I can hold off any longer. Saving up $$$, I mean. The ultimate goal was to keep it up until May, but maybe I was pushing it. Hmmm, we'lll see just have to see what happens. 'Cause those neon denims and gladiator sandals I laid my eyes on are too gorgeous to be wasted by being drooled over; I havtaaaa to get my hands on those beautiful creations of UO.


Well anyways, official break is only nanoseconds away.
The sun, SF, beach outings, shopping, PGA, and KANYE!! I dare say my vacation would resemble something like heaven. Ahhhh. Here I come, baby, put those seat belts on..

repentance

I'm such a wretched little child.

illuminate

Vivid landscape of blue is laid upon my eyes as cold water splashes against my exposed skin. Among the blanket of clouds appears a ray of sunshine that blinds my view as it falls upon my bare legs..

BEACH, you're just the thing I need in my life.




Sigh....

This is the latest I've been up this whole week.
Argh, freaking Great Depression and Adolf Hitlerdsjfjdsjfdsj!
Staying in the library for 3 hours obviously didn't help at all. Poo.

Well, enough with fantasies. Gotta go back to work mode.

hip-hop saved my life

Currently lost in the lovely tunes of Lupe Fiasco...


Just got back from Barns&Noble! The main purpose of the outing was to browse through SAT books, so I got yelled at when I was discovered lingering around the Art section to peer at fashion and design books. That's what I always end up doing despite whatever reason I came to the store for. I swear, I can stay in that one section for hours buried under the pages of words and graphics about the subject that never fails to amaze me. Ahhh! I have a strong urge to replace my boring shelf with Streets and Chanels and Vogues. Anyways, mission accomplished: the dreaded copy of CollegeBoard SAT Guide is on the its way from Amazon.

So. This morning, in anticipation of a warm weather, I put on my Starfield shirt and striped denims. Butbutbut! I ended up freezing due to windiness and mean people who wouldn't offer their hoodies to me. Haha. Sitting my cold ass in somewhat sunny Senior Lawn during tutorial didn't help and the lukewarm Chai tea didn't either cus it cooled down on my way back to school with Tascha. Argh. I won't be surprised if I become one of those nonstop coughing people. Only it would be from being exposed in the chilliness, not allergies like everyone else. Beside the never ending goose bumps though, I like how today is going. Wellll, minus the fact that I failed a math test. =( Whoever said Asians do better in math is a liar.

Mm mm mmm. As I'm typing away these very words, I'm devouring down glace de cookies n' cream and an onion bagel with strawberry cream cheese. A day before that sat a bowl of instant Thai noodles and a piece of fat, baked sausage in front of me. My afternoon "snacks" during the past three days consisted of calories that can substitute for a whole meal. I guess it's cus breakfast is no longer an option for me, even on the weekends. And with my inability to drive, the option of going out to lunch in a car is rare. Thus, one option I'm given when I come back home is to DEVOUR LIKE AN ANIMAL. First edible thing that comes to my sight will go down in my throat within seconds. Oh, how I adore my beastly self. And guess what? Dinnertime is in an hour.

citylights

Easter weekend was busy, but fun. The musical on Saturday was amazing in resemblance to its title, I’m Amazed, and In-n-Out after was even better. I’m always filling myself up with animal styled burgers when I step into that delicious eatery. And, of course, pearl drinks never fail to be the best dessert. This series of edibles have become a routine over the three weekends of dances and followed into a non-dance weekend. Definitely coincidental. Not. And BBQ party after church on Sunday! Ahhh, as if I haven’t had enough the night before. March weekends = loads of fun and food, but no sleep that I need to consume due to my insomniac self during school days. Although I'm dead tired in Monday mornings, packed weekends are the only thing I look forward to nowadays. The people I get to interact with, the events I involve myself in, the bothersome thoughts and stress I can escape from.. although temporary, it's enough to keep that smile from going away.

My parents, however, haven't been very happy with my Friday night/weekend outings lately. They already threatened me with curfew changes and other scary punishments. I do not want to risk anything to make those threats a reality. So I've decided I’m gonna sit my ass at home this Friday and have a study session all by myself. Hopefully that will be a contribution to seeing more satisfying grades on my next progress report. And disappearance of series of threats that were introduced to me earlier.



THE BIG FAT EVENTS:
3/30 dance perff
4/04 SHS praise night
4/05 DOORWAY '08
4/14-4/18 breakbreakbreak
4/19 KANYEWEST!
4/26 UNI-SON '08

Oh, you keep my excitements from fading away.



Boohooo. I bet Tino's the only school in the planet that's making its students suffer while others are enjoying their week off. Well, I shall go to read on about Hitler now and maybe I'll attack myself with some leisure reading after.

soul searching

edited - 03/22/08

The entirety of this week constituted of plenty of sunshine and bonding time. Starting with one less day, rest of the week turned out well. Everyone was dissolved in Powderpuff excitement and the abundant sunshine upped our moods. Soooo! Powderpuff Championship took place today. Expected a super intense battle of the upperclassmen, but only mild tension existed with few breathtaking moments. I was looking at the cheerleaders more than the players, actually. Hahaha. Good game though. GOOD JOB, '08!

And freaking Porscha!
P: OH WHAT?
D: WHAT?
P: OH WHAT?
D: ?
P: OH EIGHT!
D: .......OH TEN!
P: HAHAHAHA

Oh, and I had like 2 real classes today with the Seussical previews. Cutest musical ever, gotta go see it next week! And more pictures later in the day during 6th and Chem. Hurrrah, today was amazingamazing.

And Thursday was hell of a fun! During lunch, I discovered Tascha, Chihiro, and my matching outfits of purple and white. How freakishly random. Well anyways "YEEEE PICTURES!" We took about a gaziillion at the Senior Lawn with everyone gone to watch the consolation game. And the arrival of Sadies pictures = squeals and screams. I still believe ASB won't be able to come up with a theme as cute as Beauty and the Geek for another century. Hah. Pooo, I didn't get any of those cute photos for myself cus I went during the last 30 minutes.

Well, overall, this week was a nice change from the last one. Which was a depressing, messy jumble of DST, CASHEE testing, and cranky sleep-less me. If it wasn't for IDC dance to sweat off my stress, I don't know how I would've survived.


Despite all that though, I can't help but feel guilty right now. My plan for tonight was to stay home like a good kid and catch up on unfinished work and DT - with today being Good Friday and all. However, the plan was long gone when I decided to walk all the way to Verde after school with Vicki. And then meeting up with more people to go to AMC, VF, Armadillo Willy's, Alice's, Golfland, and then Quickly. Phew. Result: Pooped Diana.


Mm, I crave Chipotle and those pretty Nike Dunks. I have a feeling the cravings will last for awhile.

Well gotta go catch up to stuff. I guess I'm staying up tonight.

techno craze

Strolling down street of Haight and walking on the beaches of San Francisco was how I viewed school-free St. Patrick’s Day. However, due to my incapability to drive, this particular afternoon consisted of sushi-eating and entertaining myself with colorful liners in shades of gold and turquoise. Not surprising, just the usual Valley Fair day, considering my love for makeup and Japanese delicacy. But the ordinariness led to a failure of a perfect three day weekend I strove for. I sigh as I imagine pretty sandy beaches and lovers walking down hand in hand. Perhaps with my own hand linked to that special someone.

Oh, so much for my now impossible fantasies. The sun’s going away already.

And oh, an odd conversation with a stranger today. A Filipino guy in the cellphone booth stopped me and Vicki to comment about my Owl. I love how I always get compliments about that cheap metallic piece of jewelry. Anyways, that minute-long conversation left many laughters behind. Looking back, most of our conversation remains as a blur. One thing that I can remember clearly was how good-looking this guy was. And his unfamiliar accent. And how he mentioned the reason of my Owl is because its resemblance to my big eyes. (I wonder at his standard of a Big eye) Talk about random and weird.

Updates: Nothing mind-bobbling or breathtaking enough to sweep me off my feet from excitement. Only an occasional rush of heartbeat and a spark of an eye is what keeps my life from being categorized as uninteresting. I always find myself complaining about various aspects of my life, most of which include school: excessive food I consume, lack of spending money and rest, poor grades, and procrastination. Above all, schedule conflict is the number One on the complaints list. When one event gets in the way of the other and you end up sacrificing something. The other day, my parents introduced another dilemma to me, a life-threatening one. Jeeez, as if I don’t have enough shit to handle right now. I just pray that whatever sacrifice I choose to make will be worthwhile and I wouldn’t have to suffer from consequences in my later future.


School tomorrow. Two papers to finish, and a decision to make.
Paris Tokyo shall be on nonstop repeat tonight.

to be or not to be productive...

"Make every moment worthwhile."

Could he have read mind? These words of wisdom were given to be few hours ago when I was struggling to find balance among school, church, and family. For the past few weeks, I've been busy trying to finish up the daily necessities such as eating, sleeping, and of course, being entertained. And yet, I'm always craving for more. In the midst of all things, I've been putting other things behind. And now, I'm left with poor grades, upset stomach, and an incomplete essay. It's a pathetic sight.

And thanks to the countless trips to AMC, my wallet's been getting lighter day after day. Being utterly broke, my shopping interest has been decreasing rapidly. Hm, let’s just see where I'll stand in April when all the dance expenses and major events will be done. Maybe by then I'll be able to mutter the words, "Time for spring clothes shopping!"


On a happier note though, this week has been cheery people-wise. Nowadays, most pleasant feelings come when I'm surrounded by good company of people. I have to say, interacting with people is one of my favorite activities. Chatting with missed faces and spending time with close ones.. After a series of thoughts, I've finally came up with the conclusion that God purposely put me through the struggles and troubles I faced earlier this year to bring me to the place I stand now. I feel relieved to know that there are people that care for me and love me. It gives me a special feeling that I'll be able to do anything and everything with them on my side.

So, to my suprise, my horoscope of the week read:
Your spirits are high at this time, and you feel optimistic, self-confident, generous, and good-natured. You greet life with a fresh attitude, and it is easy for you to forget the mistakes of the past and envision bright new avenues for growth and fulfillment. Lighthearted conversations, sociability, humor, cooperation will highlight this week.

I sometimes wonder who comes up with these genius words. Although it's nonsense, it's freakishly weird and even gives me chills when something does come true. Like The Horoscope of this week. Coincidence? Yes, I know. but I always find myself spending a good portion of my time reading these silly predictions.

I sometimes feel like I'm having too much fun. Well anyways, I seriously need to WAKE UP and get back on my feet. That means bring focus to studies. Yessssir. Let the fun begin!

hazelnut beauty

I realized the Blog needs major updating..
It's been neglected due to my attempt to catch up with Life.


SO! This week has been a pleasant break away from all the academic responsibilities. Well... not really. The subject itself failed to leave me and instead, continued to haunt me throughout a time period in which I was given to rest. It's called choosing classes for next year and signing up for summer classes. And to add to that, schedule conflicts and an array of unwanted dilemmas.

= The doom of Junior year comes to reality.


And the dreary weather made the matters worse.

Besides that, things were an unending beam of (imaginary, of course) abundant sunshine. I was given numerous chances to seriously indulge the word "relax". Which is something I haven't done since 2007. Shopping trips, movies, sushi dinners, and just sleeping in. And sitting down to enjoy favorite beats. Ah, that's the beauty of life, baby!

Speaking of beauty and beautiful people, shame on Zac Efron. His beauty is now dulled away in my vision after my hearing of his cakey, I-wear-more-foundation-than-my-girlfriend complexion. And Zac, don't forget the fake eyelashes and final touch of blush! Maybe a little sarcasm there, but yes. In my dictionary, a guy who pretties himself with excessive makeup on a daily basis is a huge no-no. Only Johnny Depp's use of eyeliner seems appropriate at this moment.


Anyways! Do you know what I need badweeeeeeey right now?
A decent job and lifetime movie pass to AMC!

It's disappointing to know fun means emptier wallets in today's society.
Less movies and fun for me for the next month.

Motto of the month: Resist the temptations of movie hotties.

let the creativity flow

Thought of the day: I find it disturbing when scraps of ideas that burst in my head disappears before I can transfer it to a tangible location. It's gone like it never happened. At the same time, an empty hole emerges in my heart as it awaits to be replaced with yet another set of mind-boggling ideas. With the sudden disappearance, I usually have to end my sentences by uttering "never mind, i forgot." It sucks that my brain never manages to find ways to rewind itself back to the words that was on the verge of being coughed up. Ah, talk about bothersome moments.

Well, something has been getting to me lately. Actually, I know it's been going on for awhile and now seems like a suitable time to acknowledge it. I guess I'm the kind of a person who is easily passionate about something. When I fall for something, I tend to fall extra hard. Whether it's a person, thing, or a hobby, that newly found love slowly controls my life until it literally takes over. Whenever it comes into my mind, multiple smiles blossom across my face. It lingers for so long that I believe it would stay that way forever. But unfortunately, life doesn't always function the way I want it to. After few moments passes by, it fades away.. until it's no longer visible in my sight. It's completely vanished and leaves behind not even a slight possibility of returning, crushing down every last bits of hope for me. Then I move on to a brand-new pursuit of the target to pour my life and soul unto.

In all curiosity, I wonder if temporary happiness exists. I mean those smiles that last for seconds and the contentment that lasts for minutes.

Or is momentary pleasure a better way to explain such a feeling? Mere tugging at the heart?

Despite all the questions though, I can't deny the times when I crave for that momentary happiness. I sometimes desire to live day by day, not wanting to look ahead into the future - the impossible darkness that is waiting to be unfolded in front of my very eyes. But, definitely, the sentimental moments keep me going in life. And it's during those minutes when I feel the genuine love and the motivation to strive forward..

And that would define the true beauty of life.

the 1000-yard stare of intoxication

Words of John Green, Looking for Alaska.

My mood today equals ridiculously happy. I dunno why, but smiles have been lingering in my face the whole day. Maybe it's because Friday is here! Which means three nights to sleep in. Only I feeel like I can't sleep in this weekend due to all the excitements that await me. I'm now killing time by stuffing myself with quesadillas while entertaining myself with TV, Facebook, and Myspace. And I never go on Myspace nowadays. What a productive way to kill time. Well I should go get ready now. Will be back after 12-ish tonight. Ciao! (To Be Continued...)

To-do for the coming vacation:
Go job hunting, shopping trip to SF + watch JUMPER, 27 Dresses, I'm Le.. You get the point.



11:49 PM

A fun-filled Friday night. CENT group 'till 6:30 and then fooood! Gogogogogo! After my firm decision of temporary non-Verde state, I agreed to Randy's idea of going to Quickly for some yummy pearl drinks. Haha, nvm, take out the driver part :P And then sushi at Fusion Korea! A newly found Korean diner in which we were laughing our asses off while reading off lame Korean translations for "romantic" words. Due to our hungry beastly selves, we ended up being late, again. Sermon was good, worship was ze bessst. I saw several familar faces, which always adds on as a highlight. The movie-watching plan after went to a waste when we realized AMC didn't have any money-worthy movies on this particular Friday nights. Argh. One thing I learned today: Time flies when singing songs in a hilarious fashion.

It's now February. No eye-opening sparks occurred this week. Only few attempts to sleep earlier, fatty lunches, booty ballet classes, a dilemma among various sports for the current season which include badminton, swimming, and gymnastics, and a pretty red peacoat that wouldn't leave my mind.

Well, I just applied to Pizza My Heart! (I finally got parents' approval!) Praying will help. Possibly crossing fingers. And toes?! Hahah. 80% chance of rain tomorrow! Bummmer, hopefully the rain doesn't kill my bouncy mood tomorrow. And hopefully I will enjoy free pretzels from Auntie Anne's.



Note to Self: In need of more insightful blogs, rather than endless records of daily happenings.

electrifying thrills

During the past few days, I've been a dreary mass with rain and excessive junk food. I've been stuffing myself with shitload of unhealthy food lately and to make the matters worse, I haven't been very diligent with my running plans. AH, there goes a New Year's resolution.

It seems as if praise nights will take over my Friday nights. The one at Los Altos this Friday was the first of 2008. After trips to various houses, ice skating rink, and Verde, Randy finally parked his car at Los Altos High two hours late. Despite the fact that we missed half of the event, it went alriggght. Well, minus a minor tummyache due to the bad Verde chicken I ate earlier. Now I can't wait 'till this Friday! I'll see you guys at NVC.

Hardcore ice skating on Saturday went to a waste when I stuffed hella junk back down after. With a full stomach, I dragged my exhausted self home and surprisingly ended up among the clutters on my room instead of my bed. Cleaning helped me to put my mind off things. Favorite tunes of Stars and The Hush Sound played in my ears to keep me company. So, last weekend, I finally convinced my mom into swiping her credit card to purchase that beautiful device called Toshiba Gigabeat in its lovely pink. I've laid my eyes on it for weeks now and I couldn't hlep but scream with delight when I finally got my hands on that beauty. Ahhh. Now I can enjoy the luxury of music listening in a high quality fashion instead of my threee year old crap. I'm seriously in love with wonders of technology.

I shall now dive into the art of reading until bedtime.
Reads of the Week: NYLON and Looking for Alaska by John Green

shower me with your beautiful luxuries.

I did not hope to see the amazing four-day weekend come to an end. But, sadly, it did.

Anyway, this weekend was a box full of pleasant surprises.

Started off with random encounters and unexpected phone calls, the weekend ended on a positive note with newly made plans avec missed buddies. They definitely brightened my otherwise usual weekend.

Cloverfield took place on Friday afternoon. A film I received no life-guiding lessons of any sort from – only a bundle of questions that will probably never be answered. But, I have to say, I enjoyed the two hours I spent waiting/watching the movie. Maybe it was the intensity or the anticipation of something to pop out at me. I just couldn’t take my eyes off the screen as I stared at the vivid scenes. Of course, I knew half the things I was looking at were computer made and many even commented later that it was the worst thing ever made in theatres and that they wasted of a movie ticket. Unlike what I’ve heard though, I actually liked the way the movie was filmed, in its shaky recording position where things passed by as fast as they appear; it gave a spot for imagination to kick in. Heck, I’d even consider it as one of my top movies. Now, I needa fit 27 Dresses and Legend into my schedule. Ha, yay for film lovers!

After CENT practice on Saturday came Sunday. It consisted of praise team practice, achy toes due to vigorous shopping trip, and Fresh Choice.

And a bittersweet piece of news.
I gulped down tears and smiled as it was delivered to me. I just hope the unwanted goodbyes will never come.

Oysters at SF would describe Monday. A bad day to drive anywhere in the nonstop rain, but it was fun spending quality time with family. We bought some fresh oysters and barbecued it for lunch. Those things were hellaa good. Before, I thought oysters were like the most disgusting seafood. My beastly self totally contradicted that thought on Monday. I’m beginning to love previously hated delicacies. Pho and now oysters. Haha. I wonder what’s next.

equals the new definition of beauty.

Argh…
The forecast tells me the rain is going to nag me for the rest of January. How depressing. A rainy weekend is enough to put me in a bad mood. But two whole weeks! I desperately want a new winter coat for this chilly weather. Maybe I will get lucky and find a nice one among the messy almost-empty sale racks. It just sucks that my saved cash will go to a last-minute winter coat rather than new spring products. Boo, the transitional months. I anticipate for the day where I will breathe under the warm glimpses of the sunshine.

Btw. I noticed the ridiculous longevity of my entry. Whoever read the whole thing must have had hell load of patience. Or the person has no life that he would sacrifice a portion of it to blog reading. Heh, jas kidding.

oh, it is spring!

How I wish to get those words outta my mouth already.

It’s already middle of January. Is it just me, or does time fly by hella fast nowadays? A weekend starts and in a blink of an eye, it’s Monday. And now the calendar tells me it’s Thursday. The first half of this week was finals craze with late night studying and occasional outings. So much has been going on and now that finals are over, I can finally sit down and blog. Oh joy.

Monday was long and eventful. After short finals, first period was spent with name talks. I hate when I see/find a good name for my future kids and then forget it later on. I guess that’s, in a way, a pet peeve of mine. After, Michelle and Joyce started imitating some teachers. I joined in and we all started laughing uncontrollably loud. I bet the whole class was staring at us at one point. Too bad we were too busy with laughing to notice. French was gay, no different from other days. And PE! With Ganske gone, we didn’t have to dress out. So I took countless ugly pictures with Britney and Danny. And more pictures of “Danny Likes Men” posters. Hahaha. The rest of the day went by with its boring tone. After school, I had pho, which is quite surprising, since I NEVER eat that thing. In fact, the very last time I attempted to try that dish took place around Christmas of 2006. And I almost barfed that day: an explanation of why I haven’t had it for two years. Hm, and I had a conversation about how disgusting pho is just last weekend. But what a little hypocrite I can be. It turns out those noodles aren’t as bad as I thought. Not terrific, but alriggght. Just alright for now. Ha. After, my mom took me to my hair done! Yay! Finaaallly. Only it wasn’t much, just trimming and shorter bangs. But stopping at the hair salon always manages to improve my mood. And ice cream is always a nice after-treat. Yumm.

Yesterday was hellaa chill with easy finals and a trip to Valley Fair. Total Fitness – me, Danny and Britney, took more dumbass pictures with our ghetto phones and danced to I-pod music. After brunch, I went to feed myself with Wahoo’s I’ve been craving lately. In high heels and newly painted red toes for the interview. But! The place was closed when I arrived there with Brian and Sarah. But the wait was worthy; those quesadillas were deliciaaaous. Then Core final happened - the dreaded interview. The last minutes were nerve wrecking and I couldn’t sit still. Despite all the pre-interview jitters, however, it went fantastically great. At lunchtime, Maria and I took the bus to Valley Fair. It felt so strange to go shopping through public transportation on a school day. Yet, I enjoyed the freedom. Our first stop was A&F since Maria needed flip flops to save her feet from being murdered by her killer heels. I haven’t shopped at the place for months, but I ended up getting a pair of soft sweatpants for myself. Oh, and Aritzia! Whatta chic and friendly store. Discovery of interesting places is one of those things that make my day. And Aritzia was definitely one of those. I just hate that now is that bothersome season where pricey spring clothes appear everywhere in the still-chilly weather.

After food and all the good stuff, our last stop was Sephora where we can spend hours playing with makeup and spraying perfumes. Which we did, of course. When we got in to the bus to go home, I thought the day would end on a good note. Until Maria realized we were headed to Alum Rock, not our homes. We hella panicked and got off the bus, handed free day passes from the generous driver. But those passes were useless cus all the other bus stops were “deleted.” Then a horrible thought swept our minds: We are fucking lost. We walked around everywhere for like 20 minutes until Maria decided to call her brother to find us. And we killed time taking “WE ARE LOST” video and pictures. Sadly, when her brother came, we realized we were only two blocks away from Valley Fair =O Such a hilarious day with a twist.

Whaatta nice way to end finals today. I didn’t arrive at school until 10:20 for Chem finals. For some reason, Kinkade let all of us out hella early so I had few minutes to spare before I headed to lunch. Wahooo’s again! Yipeee. Almost went to Fresh Choice for fundraiser and poker with some of the guys, but Maria and I decided we want quality food. Strangely, my lazy self disappeared today and I didn’t mind walking all the way to Wahoo’s. I guess I was too ecstatic that finals were over and all. Well, lunch was fun. We talked about code names and Maria peeled off a sticker that she claimed to be hers. Haha. Thank God no one caught her. With our full tummies, we went to the asian store across the street for more food. I got a bag of mango jelly things for me and finished the whole bag within 20 minutes. Stopped by Jo Ann after to check out the fabrics and stuff. Reminder: Convince Mom to get me a sewing machine.

Well, no school for four days! And no homework to pester me on Sunday night. Jusss good movies and bonding time for me this weekend! Hurrrah.

the unspeakable mind of a lonely soul

Whaatta laid-back night. After frustrating moments at school, it was relaxing to have time for myself at home. Spent couple of hours thinking about things and doing what I like. It helped me to forget about some bothersome subjects that's been roaming and that perked me up a bit. I should do this more often, heh.

To my suprise, this week hasn't been the most stressful. Actually, this week has been great until the downfall from today. During tutorial, I talked to couple of my teachers about my current grades in an attempt to raise them. One I did sorta, but I couldn't even take the make-up test 'cause he didn't get it ready. After two days of reminders! Argh. And Kinkade! That impossible bitch. Yeah, she put in some lost labs that I found in the back of her classroom, but when I went back later 'cause she put in wrong scores on some of them, she goes "Noooo, I didd it once already and I'm not doing it again." And she didn't forget to add how perfect she is and doesn't make mistakes like everyone else in the world. Even when her mistakes were inevitable. That biatch. Ahhhhh! Why in the world did I get stuck with retarded bitches that doesn't even know how to teach?!?!?!

Besides grade issues, this week went by in an interesting rhythm. Some things happened, some things are awaiting to be revealed. My eyes opened up to things that I was blind to before. The real and the opposite. It's quite hilarious how some things turned out. Hah, and call me a weirdo, but I'm actually not worried about finals at all. Just a surge of anticipation to get over with them. After, I can happily make up for the canceled plans over break. Yippee!

So! I've been keeping up with my #1 new year resolution! (The others were broken long time ago. =/ Boo me.) I can already see the results. They aren't the most satisfying, but they definitely proved my negative predictions wrong. Hopefully I will keep up with this until the last day of this year and many more years to come.

Oh, before I forget. A few days ago, something unbelievable happened. My dad, who was firm about the "no driving until 18", talked to me about how I should get my permit soon and when I do, he would get me a CAAAAAAAR. That just totally made my day! Omg why is he so cool like that. But just to make sure, I'm gonna make him sign a contract soon. (= Hahaha, my little brother got himself a girlfriend. First gf, how cuutesy. Well good night everyone. And haapppy friday.

how is your heart doing today?

One more day and it's school hell. I must say, I'm not very excited. Finals and yada. But! I decided not to worry about all that until tomorrow morning. I need to savor the last moments of this vacation as much as I can. 'Cause I can feel a huge stress storm coming to get me. Oh joyy, yup. Ah, I’m glad my teachers decided to go easy on all students and not give us homework. I don’t have to be the victim of procrastination tonight. Whooohoo! Well...at least not tonight. Hopefully I won't go back to my procrastinator-self next weekend.

Today definitely defined a good way to end break. After an usual afternoon at church, I headed to Santana Row with Julioo to get couple of things. Actually, that was just an excuse. At least for me. Cus food's been the only thing that roamed in my mind during that particular hour. Strange, considering the fact I had a full lunch only couple of hours before. But whdaaaaya know! Thanks to our fatty minds, Julioo and I ended up having a feast at the location in merely two hours. After a super short stop at Urban, we stuffed ourselves with Wahoo’s fries and onion rings with talking on the side. Then, Julie wanted to treat me to Starbucks drinks. Yummy chaai. And all of the sudden, "Dude, I want some sushi now." "That sounds hella good." That was all it took for us to land in the seats of Sushi Boat. Hahaha! What a happy fatty bonding time. <3> When I came home, I couldn't resist the temptation of homemade Korean BBQ. And there goes another meal down my stomach. I swear, I've been having waaayy too many hunger attacks lately. And that could only mean more blobs of fat. NowI’m too afraid to go on the scale. And as I speak (type), I gorged down that scrumptious delicacy called pumpkin cheesecake. Arrgh. If anyone knows how to break off eating addiction, please let me know. You 'll be deeply appreciated. Hah. Maybe the Fitness classs will motivate me to get back on track with staying fit. Not. Ahhh! What have I done to myself?! I guess the only solution is...grab those running shoes and go! sigh. Well I'll see y'all tomorrow at school. Good luck to all of us! And my running plan.

rain rain, don't fall down.

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop..

Heh, not really now. But it sounded quite frightening when I heard it bang on my windows two mornings ago. I don't know why, rain always manages to ruin my mood, even during times when I'm the happiest. About the only thing I like about it is the refreshing feeling I get after it all stops. And perhaps, the rainbow. Besides all that, I dread rainy days. Period. Wet shoes, chilliness, messed up hair.... Argggh.

So I guess break is ending on a good note. Trip to Valley Fair the other day was unproductive shopping-wise , having to go after sale whores had raided all the good stores. But I did catch up with some talking and got to see some familiar faces. Including friends from EV and my English teacher from eight grade, Ms. Marshall! I still remember her love for Sean Connery and Starbucks. So it was no suprise meeting her there but it was strange to see her without the usual ponytail. Haha. So, my phone package was came two days ago. Nothing exciting, just new version of the ghetto phone. Now I'm given the lousy task of transferring all the numbers to it when the Zephyr people send the lost one to me. Yeah, that piece of crap doesn't come with the usb. GAH, I had enough of its ghetto-ness. To-do (of the year): Convince Dad to buy me the Venus.

Oh! I found two new year's resolutions for myself. A bit late, but whatever. They are: 1) Be quick in decision-making, 2) Use time wiseeeewy! It's precious, use it for something worthy. Mhm. I feel like I've been sitting in front of the computer way too much last year. Of course, I accomplished absolutely nooooothing through that except maybe few laughs from AIM conversations. And the whole decision thing's been getting me cus I'd end up regretting from making bad choices. And again, "Live life with no regrets!" Doing good so far, I have to see how well I keep up with it for the next 350 days. Whew.