electrifying thrills

During the past few days, I've been a dreary mass with rain and excessive junk food. I've been stuffing myself with shitload of unhealthy food lately and to make the matters worse, I haven't been very diligent with my running plans. AH, there goes a New Year's resolution.

It seems as if praise nights will take over my Friday nights. The one at Los Altos this Friday was the first of 2008. After trips to various houses, ice skating rink, and Verde, Randy finally parked his car at Los Altos High two hours late. Despite the fact that we missed half of the event, it went alriggght. Well, minus a minor tummyache due to the bad Verde chicken I ate earlier. Now I can't wait 'till this Friday! I'll see you guys at NVC.

Hardcore ice skating on Saturday went to a waste when I stuffed hella junk back down after. With a full stomach, I dragged my exhausted self home and surprisingly ended up among the clutters on my room instead of my bed. Cleaning helped me to put my mind off things. Favorite tunes of Stars and The Hush Sound played in my ears to keep me company. So, last weekend, I finally convinced my mom into swiping her credit card to purchase that beautiful device called Toshiba Gigabeat in its lovely pink. I've laid my eyes on it for weeks now and I couldn't hlep but scream with delight when I finally got my hands on that beauty. Ahhh. Now I can enjoy the luxury of music listening in a high quality fashion instead of my threee year old crap. I'm seriously in love with wonders of technology.

I shall now dive into the art of reading until bedtime.
Reads of the Week: NYLON and Looking for Alaska by John Green

shower me with your beautiful luxuries.

I did not hope to see the amazing four-day weekend come to an end. But, sadly, it did.

Anyway, this weekend was a box full of pleasant surprises.

Started off with random encounters and unexpected phone calls, the weekend ended on a positive note with newly made plans avec missed buddies. They definitely brightened my otherwise usual weekend.

Cloverfield took place on Friday afternoon. A film I received no life-guiding lessons of any sort from – only a bundle of questions that will probably never be answered. But, I have to say, I enjoyed the two hours I spent waiting/watching the movie. Maybe it was the intensity or the anticipation of something to pop out at me. I just couldn’t take my eyes off the screen as I stared at the vivid scenes. Of course, I knew half the things I was looking at were computer made and many even commented later that it was the worst thing ever made in theatres and that they wasted of a movie ticket. Unlike what I’ve heard though, I actually liked the way the movie was filmed, in its shaky recording position where things passed by as fast as they appear; it gave a spot for imagination to kick in. Heck, I’d even consider it as one of my top movies. Now, I needa fit 27 Dresses and Legend into my schedule. Ha, yay for film lovers!

After CENT practice on Saturday came Sunday. It consisted of praise team practice, achy toes due to vigorous shopping trip, and Fresh Choice.

And a bittersweet piece of news.
I gulped down tears and smiled as it was delivered to me. I just hope the unwanted goodbyes will never come.

Oysters at SF would describe Monday. A bad day to drive anywhere in the nonstop rain, but it was fun spending quality time with family. We bought some fresh oysters and barbecued it for lunch. Those things were hellaa good. Before, I thought oysters were like the most disgusting seafood. My beastly self totally contradicted that thought on Monday. I’m beginning to love previously hated delicacies. Pho and now oysters. Haha. I wonder what’s next.

equals the new definition of beauty.

Argh…
The forecast tells me the rain is going to nag me for the rest of January. How depressing. A rainy weekend is enough to put me in a bad mood. But two whole weeks! I desperately want a new winter coat for this chilly weather. Maybe I will get lucky and find a nice one among the messy almost-empty sale racks. It just sucks that my saved cash will go to a last-minute winter coat rather than new spring products. Boo, the transitional months. I anticipate for the day where I will breathe under the warm glimpses of the sunshine.

Btw. I noticed the ridiculous longevity of my entry. Whoever read the whole thing must have had hell load of patience. Or the person has no life that he would sacrifice a portion of it to blog reading. Heh, jas kidding.

oh, it is spring!

How I wish to get those words outta my mouth already.

It’s already middle of January. Is it just me, or does time fly by hella fast nowadays? A weekend starts and in a blink of an eye, it’s Monday. And now the calendar tells me it’s Thursday. The first half of this week was finals craze with late night studying and occasional outings. So much has been going on and now that finals are over, I can finally sit down and blog. Oh joy.

Monday was long and eventful. After short finals, first period was spent with name talks. I hate when I see/find a good name for my future kids and then forget it later on. I guess that’s, in a way, a pet peeve of mine. After, Michelle and Joyce started imitating some teachers. I joined in and we all started laughing uncontrollably loud. I bet the whole class was staring at us at one point. Too bad we were too busy with laughing to notice. French was gay, no different from other days. And PE! With Ganske gone, we didn’t have to dress out. So I took countless ugly pictures with Britney and Danny. And more pictures of “Danny Likes Men” posters. Hahaha. The rest of the day went by with its boring tone. After school, I had pho, which is quite surprising, since I NEVER eat that thing. In fact, the very last time I attempted to try that dish took place around Christmas of 2006. And I almost barfed that day: an explanation of why I haven’t had it for two years. Hm, and I had a conversation about how disgusting pho is just last weekend. But what a little hypocrite I can be. It turns out those noodles aren’t as bad as I thought. Not terrific, but alriggght. Just alright for now. Ha. After, my mom took me to my hair done! Yay! Finaaallly. Only it wasn’t much, just trimming and shorter bangs. But stopping at the hair salon always manages to improve my mood. And ice cream is always a nice after-treat. Yumm.

Yesterday was hellaa chill with easy finals and a trip to Valley Fair. Total Fitness – me, Danny and Britney, took more dumbass pictures with our ghetto phones and danced to I-pod music. After brunch, I went to feed myself with Wahoo’s I’ve been craving lately. In high heels and newly painted red toes for the interview. But! The place was closed when I arrived there with Brian and Sarah. But the wait was worthy; those quesadillas were deliciaaaous. Then Core final happened - the dreaded interview. The last minutes were nerve wrecking and I couldn’t sit still. Despite all the pre-interview jitters, however, it went fantastically great. At lunchtime, Maria and I took the bus to Valley Fair. It felt so strange to go shopping through public transportation on a school day. Yet, I enjoyed the freedom. Our first stop was A&F since Maria needed flip flops to save her feet from being murdered by her killer heels. I haven’t shopped at the place for months, but I ended up getting a pair of soft sweatpants for myself. Oh, and Aritzia! Whatta chic and friendly store. Discovery of interesting places is one of those things that make my day. And Aritzia was definitely one of those. I just hate that now is that bothersome season where pricey spring clothes appear everywhere in the still-chilly weather.

After food and all the good stuff, our last stop was Sephora where we can spend hours playing with makeup and spraying perfumes. Which we did, of course. When we got in to the bus to go home, I thought the day would end on a good note. Until Maria realized we were headed to Alum Rock, not our homes. We hella panicked and got off the bus, handed free day passes from the generous driver. But those passes were useless cus all the other bus stops were “deleted.” Then a horrible thought swept our minds: We are fucking lost. We walked around everywhere for like 20 minutes until Maria decided to call her brother to find us. And we killed time taking “WE ARE LOST” video and pictures. Sadly, when her brother came, we realized we were only two blocks away from Valley Fair =O Such a hilarious day with a twist.

Whaatta nice way to end finals today. I didn’t arrive at school until 10:20 for Chem finals. For some reason, Kinkade let all of us out hella early so I had few minutes to spare before I headed to lunch. Wahooo’s again! Yipeee. Almost went to Fresh Choice for fundraiser and poker with some of the guys, but Maria and I decided we want quality food. Strangely, my lazy self disappeared today and I didn’t mind walking all the way to Wahoo’s. I guess I was too ecstatic that finals were over and all. Well, lunch was fun. We talked about code names and Maria peeled off a sticker that she claimed to be hers. Haha. Thank God no one caught her. With our full tummies, we went to the asian store across the street for more food. I got a bag of mango jelly things for me and finished the whole bag within 20 minutes. Stopped by Jo Ann after to check out the fabrics and stuff. Reminder: Convince Mom to get me a sewing machine.

Well, no school for four days! And no homework to pester me on Sunday night. Jusss good movies and bonding time for me this weekend! Hurrrah.

the unspeakable mind of a lonely soul

Whaatta laid-back night. After frustrating moments at school, it was relaxing to have time for myself at home. Spent couple of hours thinking about things and doing what I like. It helped me to forget about some bothersome subjects that's been roaming and that perked me up a bit. I should do this more often, heh.

To my suprise, this week hasn't been the most stressful. Actually, this week has been great until the downfall from today. During tutorial, I talked to couple of my teachers about my current grades in an attempt to raise them. One I did sorta, but I couldn't even take the make-up test 'cause he didn't get it ready. After two days of reminders! Argh. And Kinkade! That impossible bitch. Yeah, she put in some lost labs that I found in the back of her classroom, but when I went back later 'cause she put in wrong scores on some of them, she goes "Noooo, I didd it once already and I'm not doing it again." And she didn't forget to add how perfect she is and doesn't make mistakes like everyone else in the world. Even when her mistakes were inevitable. That biatch. Ahhhhh! Why in the world did I get stuck with retarded bitches that doesn't even know how to teach?!?!?!

Besides grade issues, this week went by in an interesting rhythm. Some things happened, some things are awaiting to be revealed. My eyes opened up to things that I was blind to before. The real and the opposite. It's quite hilarious how some things turned out. Hah, and call me a weirdo, but I'm actually not worried about finals at all. Just a surge of anticipation to get over with them. After, I can happily make up for the canceled plans over break. Yippee!

So! I've been keeping up with my #1 new year resolution! (The others were broken long time ago. =/ Boo me.) I can already see the results. They aren't the most satisfying, but they definitely proved my negative predictions wrong. Hopefully I will keep up with this until the last day of this year and many more years to come.

Oh, before I forget. A few days ago, something unbelievable happened. My dad, who was firm about the "no driving until 18", talked to me about how I should get my permit soon and when I do, he would get me a CAAAAAAAR. That just totally made my day! Omg why is he so cool like that. But just to make sure, I'm gonna make him sign a contract soon. (= Hahaha, my little brother got himself a girlfriend. First gf, how cuutesy. Well good night everyone. And haapppy friday.

how is your heart doing today?

One more day and it's school hell. I must say, I'm not very excited. Finals and yada. But! I decided not to worry about all that until tomorrow morning. I need to savor the last moments of this vacation as much as I can. 'Cause I can feel a huge stress storm coming to get me. Oh joyy, yup. Ah, I’m glad my teachers decided to go easy on all students and not give us homework. I don’t have to be the victim of procrastination tonight. Whooohoo! Well...at least not tonight. Hopefully I won't go back to my procrastinator-self next weekend.

Today definitely defined a good way to end break. After an usual afternoon at church, I headed to Santana Row with Julioo to get couple of things. Actually, that was just an excuse. At least for me. Cus food's been the only thing that roamed in my mind during that particular hour. Strange, considering the fact I had a full lunch only couple of hours before. But whdaaaaya know! Thanks to our fatty minds, Julioo and I ended up having a feast at the location in merely two hours. After a super short stop at Urban, we stuffed ourselves with Wahoo’s fries and onion rings with talking on the side. Then, Julie wanted to treat me to Starbucks drinks. Yummy chaai. And all of the sudden, "Dude, I want some sushi now." "That sounds hella good." That was all it took for us to land in the seats of Sushi Boat. Hahaha! What a happy fatty bonding time. <3> When I came home, I couldn't resist the temptation of homemade Korean BBQ. And there goes another meal down my stomach. I swear, I've been having waaayy too many hunger attacks lately. And that could only mean more blobs of fat. NowI’m too afraid to go on the scale. And as I speak (type), I gorged down that scrumptious delicacy called pumpkin cheesecake. Arrgh. If anyone knows how to break off eating addiction, please let me know. You 'll be deeply appreciated. Hah. Maybe the Fitness classs will motivate me to get back on track with staying fit. Not. Ahhh! What have I done to myself?! I guess the only solution is...grab those running shoes and go! sigh. Well I'll see y'all tomorrow at school. Good luck to all of us! And my running plan.

rain rain, don't fall down.

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop..

Heh, not really now. But it sounded quite frightening when I heard it bang on my windows two mornings ago. I don't know why, rain always manages to ruin my mood, even during times when I'm the happiest. About the only thing I like about it is the refreshing feeling I get after it all stops. And perhaps, the rainbow. Besides all that, I dread rainy days. Period. Wet shoes, chilliness, messed up hair.... Argggh.

So I guess break is ending on a good note. Trip to Valley Fair the other day was unproductive shopping-wise , having to go after sale whores had raided all the good stores. But I did catch up with some talking and got to see some familiar faces. Including friends from EV and my English teacher from eight grade, Ms. Marshall! I still remember her love for Sean Connery and Starbucks. So it was no suprise meeting her there but it was strange to see her without the usual ponytail. Haha. So, my phone package was came two days ago. Nothing exciting, just new version of the ghetto phone. Now I'm given the lousy task of transferring all the numbers to it when the Zephyr people send the lost one to me. Yeah, that piece of crap doesn't come with the usb. GAH, I had enough of its ghetto-ness. To-do (of the year): Convince Dad to buy me the Venus.

Oh! I found two new year's resolutions for myself. A bit late, but whatever. They are: 1) Be quick in decision-making, 2) Use time wiseeeewy! It's precious, use it for something worthy. Mhm. I feel like I've been sitting in front of the computer way too much last year. Of course, I accomplished absolutely nooooothing through that except maybe few laughs from AIM conversations. And the whole decision thing's been getting me cus I'd end up regretting from making bad choices. And again, "Live life with no regrets!" Doing good so far, I have to see how well I keep up with it for the next 350 days. Whew.

fashionistic wonders

All I wanna say is that fashion is amazing.
(And so is Agyness Deyn!!!)

There is no real definition to fashion; it's what you make of it.

I just can't wait 'till the day when I can get myself lost,
in its genuine works of one's inner mind and creativity.











one jacket, three looks

why it's so wonderful.

“In difficult times fashion is always outrageous.” - Elsa Schiaparelli

fill in the blank

My vision is blurry and the aroma of fresh baked green tea cupcakes makes my stomach growl.

Second day of 2008 and no particular thrills or eye opening changes. Just cupcakes and a new hoodie to keep me happy and warm. Looking back, 2007 has been one hell of a crazy roller coaster ride. The ups and downs led me on moments of excitement and dread. Important decisions, unforgettable memories, tears, new and broken relationships took place. And of course, I had my doubts and regrets. But I knew I had to move on and I pulled myself up. In the end, I learned they were all done for the good.

The talk I had with Julie earlier put me in a deep thought about many things including my faith. It saddens me to see my first resolution of 2007 come to a bitter end. I'm afraid that my faith has rather diminished. From the three days away from home in Tahoe, I fully understood that and am now determined to make changes. That is now my #1 goal of 2008. It just pains me to know it will stay that way for the longest time in my life. Two other main goals for the year: less laziness and more working out.

Weeell! I saw the Venus the other day at the mall. It's absolutely beautifuuuul compared to my ghetto, uglyass phone. I'd kill to have that phone right now, but there's no way my parents will buy me that pricey shit. As I hate to admit though, I miss my ghetto piece of crap. I have no idea how I lived the last 5 days without it. Thank God its replacement is getting delivered tomorrow (Yayy!). Ah, life was so inconvenient without it. And that just proved how much of a tech-freak I am.

mm, this fatty shit is too delicious to be true.

P.S. My motto of the year: “Live life with no regrets.”