hazelnut beauty

I realized the Blog needs major updating..
It's been neglected due to my attempt to catch up with Life.


SO! This week has been a pleasant break away from all the academic responsibilities. Well... not really. The subject itself failed to leave me and instead, continued to haunt me throughout a time period in which I was given to rest. It's called choosing classes for next year and signing up for summer classes. And to add to that, schedule conflicts and an array of unwanted dilemmas.

= The doom of Junior year comes to reality.


And the dreary weather made the matters worse.

Besides that, things were an unending beam of (imaginary, of course) abundant sunshine. I was given numerous chances to seriously indulge the word "relax". Which is something I haven't done since 2007. Shopping trips, movies, sushi dinners, and just sleeping in. And sitting down to enjoy favorite beats. Ah, that's the beauty of life, baby!

Speaking of beauty and beautiful people, shame on Zac Efron. His beauty is now dulled away in my vision after my hearing of his cakey, I-wear-more-foundation-than-my-girlfriend complexion. And Zac, don't forget the fake eyelashes and final touch of blush! Maybe a little sarcasm there, but yes. In my dictionary, a guy who pretties himself with excessive makeup on a daily basis is a huge no-no. Only Johnny Depp's use of eyeliner seems appropriate at this moment.


Anyways! Do you know what I need badweeeeeeey right now?
A decent job and lifetime movie pass to AMC!

It's disappointing to know fun means emptier wallets in today's society.
Less movies and fun for me for the next month.

Motto of the month: Resist the temptations of movie hotties.

let the creativity flow

Thought of the day: I find it disturbing when scraps of ideas that burst in my head disappears before I can transfer it to a tangible location. It's gone like it never happened. At the same time, an empty hole emerges in my heart as it awaits to be replaced with yet another set of mind-boggling ideas. With the sudden disappearance, I usually have to end my sentences by uttering "never mind, i forgot." It sucks that my brain never manages to find ways to rewind itself back to the words that was on the verge of being coughed up. Ah, talk about bothersome moments.

Well, something has been getting to me lately. Actually, I know it's been going on for awhile and now seems like a suitable time to acknowledge it. I guess I'm the kind of a person who is easily passionate about something. When I fall for something, I tend to fall extra hard. Whether it's a person, thing, or a hobby, that newly found love slowly controls my life until it literally takes over. Whenever it comes into my mind, multiple smiles blossom across my face. It lingers for so long that I believe it would stay that way forever. But unfortunately, life doesn't always function the way I want it to. After few moments passes by, it fades away.. until it's no longer visible in my sight. It's completely vanished and leaves behind not even a slight possibility of returning, crushing down every last bits of hope for me. Then I move on to a brand-new pursuit of the target to pour my life and soul unto.

In all curiosity, I wonder if temporary happiness exists. I mean those smiles that last for seconds and the contentment that lasts for minutes.

Or is momentary pleasure a better way to explain such a feeling? Mere tugging at the heart?

Despite all the questions though, I can't deny the times when I crave for that momentary happiness. I sometimes desire to live day by day, not wanting to look ahead into the future - the impossible darkness that is waiting to be unfolded in front of my very eyes. But, definitely, the sentimental moments keep me going in life. And it's during those minutes when I feel the genuine love and the motivation to strive forward..

And that would define the true beauty of life.

the 1000-yard stare of intoxication

Words of John Green, Looking for Alaska.

My mood today equals ridiculously happy. I dunno why, but smiles have been lingering in my face the whole day. Maybe it's because Friday is here! Which means three nights to sleep in. Only I feeel like I can't sleep in this weekend due to all the excitements that await me. I'm now killing time by stuffing myself with quesadillas while entertaining myself with TV, Facebook, and Myspace. And I never go on Myspace nowadays. What a productive way to kill time. Well I should go get ready now. Will be back after 12-ish tonight. Ciao! (To Be Continued...)

To-do for the coming vacation:
Go job hunting, shopping trip to SF + watch JUMPER, 27 Dresses, I'm Le.. You get the point.



11:49 PM

A fun-filled Friday night. CENT group 'till 6:30 and then fooood! Gogogogogo! After my firm decision of temporary non-Verde state, I agreed to Randy's idea of going to Quickly for some yummy pearl drinks. Haha, nvm, take out the driver part :P And then sushi at Fusion Korea! A newly found Korean diner in which we were laughing our asses off while reading off lame Korean translations for "romantic" words. Due to our hungry beastly selves, we ended up being late, again. Sermon was good, worship was ze bessst. I saw several familar faces, which always adds on as a highlight. The movie-watching plan after went to a waste when we realized AMC didn't have any money-worthy movies on this particular Friday nights. Argh. One thing I learned today: Time flies when singing songs in a hilarious fashion.

It's now February. No eye-opening sparks occurred this week. Only few attempts to sleep earlier, fatty lunches, booty ballet classes, a dilemma among various sports for the current season which include badminton, swimming, and gymnastics, and a pretty red peacoat that wouldn't leave my mind.

Well, I just applied to Pizza My Heart! (I finally got parents' approval!) Praying will help. Possibly crossing fingers. And toes?! Hahah. 80% chance of rain tomorrow! Bummmer, hopefully the rain doesn't kill my bouncy mood tomorrow. And hopefully I will enjoy free pretzels from Auntie Anne's.



Note to Self: In need of more insightful blogs, rather than endless records of daily happenings.