illuminate

Vivid landscape of blue is laid upon my eyes as cold water splashes against my exposed skin. Among the blanket of clouds appears a ray of sunshine that blinds my view as it falls upon my bare legs..

BEACH, you're just the thing I need in my life.




Sigh....

This is the latest I've been up this whole week.
Argh, freaking Great Depression and Adolf Hitlerdsjfjdsjfdsj!
Staying in the library for 3 hours obviously didn't help at all. Poo.

Well, enough with fantasies. Gotta go back to work mode.

hip-hop saved my life

Currently lost in the lovely tunes of Lupe Fiasco...


Just got back from Barns&Noble! The main purpose of the outing was to browse through SAT books, so I got yelled at when I was discovered lingering around the Art section to peer at fashion and design books. That's what I always end up doing despite whatever reason I came to the store for. I swear, I can stay in that one section for hours buried under the pages of words and graphics about the subject that never fails to amaze me. Ahhh! I have a strong urge to replace my boring shelf with Streets and Chanels and Vogues. Anyways, mission accomplished: the dreaded copy of CollegeBoard SAT Guide is on the its way from Amazon.

So. This morning, in anticipation of a warm weather, I put on my Starfield shirt and striped denims. Butbutbut! I ended up freezing due to windiness and mean people who wouldn't offer their hoodies to me. Haha. Sitting my cold ass in somewhat sunny Senior Lawn during tutorial didn't help and the lukewarm Chai tea didn't either cus it cooled down on my way back to school with Tascha. Argh. I won't be surprised if I become one of those nonstop coughing people. Only it would be from being exposed in the chilliness, not allergies like everyone else. Beside the never ending goose bumps though, I like how today is going. Wellll, minus the fact that I failed a math test. =( Whoever said Asians do better in math is a liar.

Mm mm mmm. As I'm typing away these very words, I'm devouring down glace de cookies n' cream and an onion bagel with strawberry cream cheese. A day before that sat a bowl of instant Thai noodles and a piece of fat, baked sausage in front of me. My afternoon "snacks" during the past three days consisted of calories that can substitute for a whole meal. I guess it's cus breakfast is no longer an option for me, even on the weekends. And with my inability to drive, the option of going out to lunch in a car is rare. Thus, one option I'm given when I come back home is to DEVOUR LIKE AN ANIMAL. First edible thing that comes to my sight will go down in my throat within seconds. Oh, how I adore my beastly self. And guess what? Dinnertime is in an hour.

citylights

Easter weekend was busy, but fun. The musical on Saturday was amazing in resemblance to its title, I’m Amazed, and In-n-Out after was even better. I’m always filling myself up with animal styled burgers when I step into that delicious eatery. And, of course, pearl drinks never fail to be the best dessert. This series of edibles have become a routine over the three weekends of dances and followed into a non-dance weekend. Definitely coincidental. Not. And BBQ party after church on Sunday! Ahhh, as if I haven’t had enough the night before. March weekends = loads of fun and food, but no sleep that I need to consume due to my insomniac self during school days. Although I'm dead tired in Monday mornings, packed weekends are the only thing I look forward to nowadays. The people I get to interact with, the events I involve myself in, the bothersome thoughts and stress I can escape from.. although temporary, it's enough to keep that smile from going away.

My parents, however, haven't been very happy with my Friday night/weekend outings lately. They already threatened me with curfew changes and other scary punishments. I do not want to risk anything to make those threats a reality. So I've decided I’m gonna sit my ass at home this Friday and have a study session all by myself. Hopefully that will be a contribution to seeing more satisfying grades on my next progress report. And disappearance of series of threats that were introduced to me earlier.



THE BIG FAT EVENTS:
3/30 dance perff
4/04 SHS praise night
4/05 DOORWAY '08
4/14-4/18 breakbreakbreak
4/19 KANYEWEST!
4/26 UNI-SON '08

Oh, you keep my excitements from fading away.



Boohooo. I bet Tino's the only school in the planet that's making its students suffer while others are enjoying their week off. Well, I shall go to read on about Hitler now and maybe I'll attack myself with some leisure reading after.

soul searching

edited - 03/22/08

The entirety of this week constituted of plenty of sunshine and bonding time. Starting with one less day, rest of the week turned out well. Everyone was dissolved in Powderpuff excitement and the abundant sunshine upped our moods. Soooo! Powderpuff Championship took place today. Expected a super intense battle of the upperclassmen, but only mild tension existed with few breathtaking moments. I was looking at the cheerleaders more than the players, actually. Hahaha. Good game though. GOOD JOB, '08!

And freaking Porscha!
P: OH WHAT?
D: WHAT?
P: OH WHAT?
D: ?
P: OH EIGHT!
D: .......OH TEN!
P: HAHAHAHA

Oh, and I had like 2 real classes today with the Seussical previews. Cutest musical ever, gotta go see it next week! And more pictures later in the day during 6th and Chem. Hurrrah, today was amazingamazing.

And Thursday was hell of a fun! During lunch, I discovered Tascha, Chihiro, and my matching outfits of purple and white. How freakishly random. Well anyways "YEEEE PICTURES!" We took about a gaziillion at the Senior Lawn with everyone gone to watch the consolation game. And the arrival of Sadies pictures = squeals and screams. I still believe ASB won't be able to come up with a theme as cute as Beauty and the Geek for another century. Hah. Pooo, I didn't get any of those cute photos for myself cus I went during the last 30 minutes.

Well, overall, this week was a nice change from the last one. Which was a depressing, messy jumble of DST, CASHEE testing, and cranky sleep-less me. If it wasn't for IDC dance to sweat off my stress, I don't know how I would've survived.


Despite all that though, I can't help but feel guilty right now. My plan for tonight was to stay home like a good kid and catch up on unfinished work and DT - with today being Good Friday and all. However, the plan was long gone when I decided to walk all the way to Verde after school with Vicki. And then meeting up with more people to go to AMC, VF, Armadillo Willy's, Alice's, Golfland, and then Quickly. Phew. Result: Pooped Diana.


Mm, I crave Chipotle and those pretty Nike Dunks. I have a feeling the cravings will last for awhile.

Well gotta go catch up to stuff. I guess I'm staying up tonight.

techno craze

Strolling down street of Haight and walking on the beaches of San Francisco was how I viewed school-free St. Patrick’s Day. However, due to my incapability to drive, this particular afternoon consisted of sushi-eating and entertaining myself with colorful liners in shades of gold and turquoise. Not surprising, just the usual Valley Fair day, considering my love for makeup and Japanese delicacy. But the ordinariness led to a failure of a perfect three day weekend I strove for. I sigh as I imagine pretty sandy beaches and lovers walking down hand in hand. Perhaps with my own hand linked to that special someone.

Oh, so much for my now impossible fantasies. The sun’s going away already.

And oh, an odd conversation with a stranger today. A Filipino guy in the cellphone booth stopped me and Vicki to comment about my Owl. I love how I always get compliments about that cheap metallic piece of jewelry. Anyways, that minute-long conversation left many laughters behind. Looking back, most of our conversation remains as a blur. One thing that I can remember clearly was how good-looking this guy was. And his unfamiliar accent. And how he mentioned the reason of my Owl is because its resemblance to my big eyes. (I wonder at his standard of a Big eye) Talk about random and weird.

Updates: Nothing mind-bobbling or breathtaking enough to sweep me off my feet from excitement. Only an occasional rush of heartbeat and a spark of an eye is what keeps my life from being categorized as uninteresting. I always find myself complaining about various aspects of my life, most of which include school: excessive food I consume, lack of spending money and rest, poor grades, and procrastination. Above all, schedule conflict is the number One on the complaints list. When one event gets in the way of the other and you end up sacrificing something. The other day, my parents introduced another dilemma to me, a life-threatening one. Jeeez, as if I don’t have enough shit to handle right now. I just pray that whatever sacrifice I choose to make will be worthwhile and I wouldn’t have to suffer from consequences in my later future.


School tomorrow. Two papers to finish, and a decision to make.
Paris Tokyo shall be on nonstop repeat tonight.

to be or not to be productive...

"Make every moment worthwhile."

Could he have read mind? These words of wisdom were given to be few hours ago when I was struggling to find balance among school, church, and family. For the past few weeks, I've been busy trying to finish up the daily necessities such as eating, sleeping, and of course, being entertained. And yet, I'm always craving for more. In the midst of all things, I've been putting other things behind. And now, I'm left with poor grades, upset stomach, and an incomplete essay. It's a pathetic sight.

And thanks to the countless trips to AMC, my wallet's been getting lighter day after day. Being utterly broke, my shopping interest has been decreasing rapidly. Hm, let’s just see where I'll stand in April when all the dance expenses and major events will be done. Maybe by then I'll be able to mutter the words, "Time for spring clothes shopping!"


On a happier note though, this week has been cheery people-wise. Nowadays, most pleasant feelings come when I'm surrounded by good company of people. I have to say, interacting with people is one of my favorite activities. Chatting with missed faces and spending time with close ones.. After a series of thoughts, I've finally came up with the conclusion that God purposely put me through the struggles and troubles I faced earlier this year to bring me to the place I stand now. I feel relieved to know that there are people that care for me and love me. It gives me a special feeling that I'll be able to do anything and everything with them on my side.

So, to my suprise, my horoscope of the week read:
Your spirits are high at this time, and you feel optimistic, self-confident, generous, and good-natured. You greet life with a fresh attitude, and it is easy for you to forget the mistakes of the past and envision bright new avenues for growth and fulfillment. Lighthearted conversations, sociability, humor, cooperation will highlight this week.

I sometimes wonder who comes up with these genius words. Although it's nonsense, it's freakishly weird and even gives me chills when something does come true. Like The Horoscope of this week. Coincidence? Yes, I know. but I always find myself spending a good portion of my time reading these silly predictions.

I sometimes feel like I'm having too much fun. Well anyways, I seriously need to WAKE UP and get back on my feet. That means bring focus to studies. Yessssir. Let the fun begin!